Saturday, 29 May 2010

Telling the folks!

6 Weeks
29 May 2010

My parents are coming down for a Saturday night and it's the first time we have seen them after the wedding so very excited! Also, a lot more excited than normal as we have some very exciting news to share with them! We are going out for dinner with them and Dan's folks so perfect opportunity to tell them all together and face-to-face.

Dan, me, mum, dad and Frances spent the day at Wakehurst place and I was so desperate to spill the beans but Dan and I had already decided that the evening would be best! I felt ok all day but I just needed the loo all the god damn time!

I had a little sneaky nap before getting ready for dinner and just as we were leaving to get in the cab, what a surprise I needed the loo again! This time mum said, 'Dan is she pregnant or something?', his response (not wanting to spoil the planned surprise) 'oh, is that what happens when your preggers, huh' and swiftly moved on! Good boy!

So, once we were seated at the table I broke the news, 'oh yeah, something we forgot to tell you... you guys are going to be grandparents - we're having a baby!'. My mum clamped her hands over her mouth in shock, Frances had tears in her eyes and beaming, my dad, watery eyes and gives me a hug and John - not sure he understood what I said! hehe. He soon understood in the end! ;0)

The news is finally out and after keeping it a secret for just over 2 weeks (it felt like a lifetime!) I am so glad we have shared our news! We did ask them to keep it a secret though....

Tuesday, 25 May 2010

The story of how it FINALLY happened

Now, when you decide you want and are ready for a baby, you just want one now and DO NOT want to wait!!! In reality it is never going to happen that way! Dan and I decided to stop using contraception in February (much to Dan's objections as he didn't want a sleepy, hormonal bride but mostly because he wanted a drinking buddy on our honeymoon!) but we decided to just see 'what happens'.... anyway, lets just say, with the stress of organising the wedding, the lack of time to even think about trying for a baby it was unlikely to ever happen! Looking back, I'm quite glad I didn't fall pregnant before the wedding or honeymoon as I had the best time and to be honest knowing what I know now about how I would feel in the first few weeks, I would have hated to have felt like that during the 'wedding times'!

I already have an app. downloaded iphone which I have used in the past to log my period dates and it also has a ovulating setting too. Along came the honeymoon and doing what all newly-weds should be doing on their honeymoon I felt quite excited and confident about the result! On the last day of honeymoon disappointment struck and yep, along came my period.... damn! Although, you know deep down that it can take the healthiest of people months to conceive, you always think it will happen straight away! Of course, it doesn't always happen!

After getting back from honeymoon, it's safe to say that I became a little obsessed about ovulating - reading about the best time to 'do it' and what can be done to help make it happen. I kept having this horrible thought that it could take months and I knew that it wasn't healthy to be 'obsessed' about it all. Anyway, whilst reading many chat room sites, a lot of people were talking about Ovulation Sticks and I thought, hey it can't do any harm in trying them, I'll pick some up! They are brilliant, you pee on the stick when your period has finished and you get a smiley face when it's the best time to conceive. You have only 48 hours from the smiley face before you would have to wait until the following month. Easier said than done when I have a husband who stays away a lot for work and yep, you guessed it, when I got the smiley face, he was bloody away!!! We managed to get one opportunity in this time and guess what.... BINGO!!! I never got my next period so the rest is history! Conception date circa 3 May 2010.

I would definitely recommend these sticks for anyone trying to get pregnant because it gives you the exact time to try and then at least you know you are getting the best opportunity! Oh, by the way... I have 18 spare tests left if anyone wants them ;0)

I feel so lucky and blessed that it happened so quickly for us and I just wish it was the same for everyone who wants a baby!

Monday, 24 May 2010

Dan's Birthday

24 May 2010

The last few days have been good - although I've not had any signs of pregnancy which to be honest is good but does make me a little worried... it's funny, but feeling like crap or having some weird feeling going on, although horrible at the time, makes you feel very comforting that something is happening in there! When you feel a cramp, a bit sleepy or even nauseous you get this little sense of excitement and feel the baby is at work growing!

Just to make sure everything was still ok I did ANOTHER test and yep, thank god, it said 'positive', phew!! Needless to say - I kept this test in my makeup bag and yep, I keep checking it.
Today, baby hawkes is the size of a 'orange pip'. Tiny but all ours! It's Dan's birthday too so on his card I signed it 'love Abby (your loving wife) and our little 'orange pip'. Sad I know, but hey, I don't care! Just think, the next birthday card I give him will be from me and our baby!! Yikes!

Although Dan (Mr Sensible) keeps telling me not to wish my pregnancy away - I so want my bump to appear and also want to be at the 12 week mark!! A few more weeks to go now...

Mum and Dad are coming down next week so we have decided that we will tell both sets of parents at the same time when we're all out for dinner. We get to share our excitement, woo hoo!

Sunday, 23 May 2010

May - Symptoms

Why is it, you finally find out you are pregnant and then the symptoms begin. Here is what I am experiencing so far.....

- Always, always need the loo. And when I say always, I mean always, like twice in 1 hour!!!
- Very sore boobs. I couldn't even put the shower water on them without being in pain.
- Eating lots - although I think a lot of this was just in my mind so I can just scoff my face ;0)
- lots of gas in my tummy, not good when sat at work all day.
- stomach cramps, like period pain but in one side. They have disappeared now.

Back to food.... As you know, I love my alcohol, seafood, cheese, sushi and all of which are a no no during pregnancy!!! This makes my life very difficult especially considering most of my lunches and dinners consist of prawns. I love a glass of rose in the evening at the weekend and don't even get my started on my homemade cocktails (learnt from honeymoon!) Oh and gorgonzola, that is also a no no's! Damn it! My whole eating plan will have to change....
p.s. I think I may keep eating prawns though (I read that as long as they are not off and cooked then I will be fine. Enough said!)

Friday, 21 May 2010

So hard keeping it a secret.....

5 weeks
21 May 2010

Sitting at work and being the only person knowing I'm preggers feels very sneaky but kind of nice! I wonder whether anyone has an idea?!? probably not I guess!

Keeping it a secret is so so hard, I'm only 5 weeks and I can't believe I have to wait until 10-12 weeks until I can share my news! Crikey! There is one person I so want to tell and that is Vic.. we talk about babies a lot and she knows how much I want that positive test result but I need to wait until I have seen the doctor at least before I can share the news!

I will make an appointment with the GP soon. Early days but at least it gets the ball rolling and get it all confirmed!

Symptoms so far... starving constantly and always, always needing the loo! Very very sore boobs, sore to the touch and even in the shower and although the cramps have passed, my stomach is making the worst noises (not good when sat in the office, that could be embarrassing!)
Roll on the next few weeks, how exciting!!

Wednesday, 19 May 2010

I'm really pregnant....


4 Weeks
19 May 2010

Two days ago I felt a little weird and thought (and hoped) I might be pregnant. I had stomach cramps in the left side of tummy and as so close to my period (4 days to go..) I just assumed they were the usual period symptoms.

Just in case, I bought a couple of pregnancy test on the way to work and they advise you do it first thing in the morning. So, when I got to work I did one.... the bloody thing didn't work properly (the 'working' window was invalid) but it did still have a 'cross' in the window saying I was preggers. I decided just to wait until I got home to do the next one, just to be sure and before I got my hopes up!

I did the other test when I got home about 7pm. It worked and it was POSITIVE!!!!

How do I tell the hubby.... this was so exciting as we were ready (kind of) for a baby but I guess neither of us were expecting it to happen so quickly! So, Dan came in from work and we did the usual catch up on work things, get into comfy clothes, start making dinner, whilst inside I was bursting to tell him! After we finished the usual chit chat and we were busy getting dinner ready, I said, 'oh, I have some news... I'm pregnant!' Dan being Dan didn't believe me and wanted to see the positive test before he showed any sign of excitement, there he was, looking at the test, looking at the result instructions, back to looking at the test then back to the instructions... Then he finally said, 'OMG we're going to have a baby!!!!'

From my iphone calculations (which I used to track my period) I worked out that I was only 4 weeks pregnant so we decided to keep it to ourselves for the time being, to be safe. Oh god....

I can't believe how lucky we are to fall pregnant so quickly. It takes some couples months to conceive and it just happened for us. One trick that I now swear by are ovulation sticks. I bought these after reading that they were key to tell you the best time to conceive. I did 2 tests that month and bingo, I fell pregnant! Definitely a good buy, although I have 18 now spare.....

Now we have the next 8 weeks to keep it a secret and try and let the fact we are having a baby all sink in! I am the happiest person alive!